Vicki Pattison opened up about her struggle with alcohol in an emotional social media post.
The 34-year-old former star Geordie Shore worked with Channel 4 on a documentary about alcohol abuse.
Today she went to see the first draft of the show and explained how it left her speechless.
Vicki posted a selfie to her Instagram feed, writing a long and heartfelt caption about the upcoming release.
She began, “It’s not often that I am at a loss for words.
“But after watching the first version of my new documentary on Channel 4 today… Honestly, I am.”
The star spoke about her father’s struggle with alcohol abuse: “My father’s illness and my own difficult relationship with alcohol has had a profound effect on who I am as a person.
“At times when I was not in the best place – when I was abusing alcohol and, depending on this, I did not sleep at night, wondering if this was just the beginning of this slippery slope.
“And in the darkest moments of my life, I really believed that it was just a forgotten conclusion — that no matter how hard I tried to be something different, something bigger or something better…”
The heartbreaking post continued: “I was always going to become an alcoholic like my father, hurting the people I loved and unable to break the toxic cycle.
“And that’s why for years I pushed people away or made fleeting friendships – because I was so afraid of getting close to people that in the end I thought I would just let them down and hurt them with my inevitable behavior 🥺”
Vicki continued, “I’m so nervous about sharing something so raw and so vulnerable with all of you, but after seeing this sneak peek today, I’m so glad I took that step…
“I want everyone to understand more about what it means to be the child of an alcoholic, I want everyone to understand more about addiction and learn more than just a negative story that we are spoon-fed.
“This is a disease and people suffering from it need our understanding, our kindness, but also our strength – I spent too much time helping the person I love, and now I know that I was really only protecting myself. “.
The star added: “More than anything, I want everyone who is struggling to know that they are not alone and that they don’t need to be defined by their mistakes, their parents’ decisions, or their past…
“Mistakes, moments of weakness, stumbling… these are lessons, not life sentences – so remember that and don’t be too hard on yourself or those you love… And move forward with compassion, understanding and hope. that tomorrow will be a better day.. 💙”
She concluded, “I hope this documentary helps everyone who is struggling and I really can’t wait for you all to see it.
“Vicky Pattison: alcohol, my dad and me… Coming this summer to @channel4 🤍”
Vicki’s friends, family and followers rushed to the comments section to support her.
Dreamboys star Rogan O’Connor wrote: “Love you Vic! Also, Silent suits you so well 😂❤️x.”
Pete Wicks of Towie commented, “❤️❤️❤️”
And one fan wrote: “100% – your parents’ illness and addiction don’t define you, even though sometimes you live in fear that you’re making the same mistakes they did.
Thanks for documenting this. Many people suffer silently from growing up in an addiction environment.
“More people need to know that the mistakes they made are not the definition of who you are!”
After her emotional post, Vicki posted on Instagram a story about how she burst into tears.
She signed it: “God, I’m just blown away.”
Luckily, the former I’m A Celeb winner didn’t cry for long as she prepared for her vacation.
Vicki shared how she went for a facial with the DrMediSpa team.
She opted for fire and ice for her face, which starts at £150.
Beauty Jordie showed off her glowing skin after a facial as she smiled for a selfie in the car.
While Vicky’s expensive facial may not be for everyone who wants a brightening and lifting effect, there are many products available that can help mimic the effects at home.
Wishful, a skincare brand owned by Huda Kattan, has just launched its Eye Lift & Contour 1% Serum with Bakuchiol & Peptides.
It lifts, lifts, smoothes, contours, firms, brightens dark circles, and even helps soften fine lines.